The Truth Be Told

Well, I have made my decision. I have decided to listen to God and I am not taking the baby from my brother and his girlfriend. My brother called me again tonight to have me talk to his girlfriend so she could ease my mind that everything was going to be fine and that she was going to be able to give us the baby. She said all the right things and if it was meant to be I would be the happiest women in the world right now, out shopping buy baby closes and kicking Eric out of the spare room to turn it into a nursery. But that is not the case. I spoke to my mom and told her how I felt. I told her that the last thing I want to for them to think that I don't want the baby because that could not be further from the truth!! I told her the story about Sara in the bible and even though she might think I was crazy I really felt like God was telling me not to be like her. Don't jump the gun, wait on me and the promise that I have given you. I explained to her that my flesh is screaming, " ARE YOU STUPID THIS MIGHT BE YOUR LAST CHANCE!!!" But for once in my life I need to listen to what I know God is telling me. Not that I am never going to have another baby but that this is just not my baby. I was very happy and surprised that she was so understanding. This has been another of my worries that I was burdening them by not talking the baby because they would have to help take care of this one long with the other two they have. But she understood and that meant the world to me. Thanks mom!! So that is that or kinda, no I have to tell my brother and his girlfriend. I have decided to write them a letter. I feel like the only way I can really be sure that they understand and that I can say all that I want to say it by writing it down. So that is my plain I will be working on it this weekend. I might try to put a proof copy on here if you all want to add comments. Thanks to all of you for your prays it means alot to me and it comforts me to know that I am making the right decision. Now down to serous business......Sara was like 90 when she had her baby. God, I hope we can work out a deal!! :)