Feeling Better

It is funny how you can miss something you have never seen. It's funny how you can feel someone missing you that you have never seen! It is comforting to me to know that no matter how far away I put myself God is always there waiting for me, missing me wanting me. I can feel it, it is really cool and just reminds me how real He really is. I have been back sliding for the last couple months. Not going to Church not spending my time with Him and I can feel it. I feel like something is missing and He was. Not that He was not there but just that I have not been letting Him in. This week, today I start over. I start with Him in mind and keeping Him with me. I feel better today I still have a decision to make in regards to the baby situation but I feel good about where I am going and I know that in the end God will lead me to the right decision. I have decided to try and focus on some thing else. Something else beside what I want or how I feel but I focus on what other people may need from me today. If I spend all my time worrying and feeling sorry for myself then how can I possible help others? I love it when God speaks to me, the truth is He speaks to us all the time but we just don't always listen. This week He has reminded me to do a couple things that maybe I have not been doing lately.

1. Forgive
2. Be Kind
3. Be Patience
4. Be Slow to Anger

Things that I know I should be doing but when you pull yourself away you are quick to lose them. I was reading in Mathew and reading about how Jesus said that we should come to Him as the children. I was thinking about this for a while and then today when I was at work one of my patients came in with her little girl, about 4 years old. She sees me and run to my yelling Margie and hugs me. To cute right well before she left she said " I love you Margie" and gave me a kiss on my cheek priceless. This is what God was talking about!! This is how we are supposed to love Him and each other. This is how He loves us. Priceless just priceless!! This little girl just loves unconditional no restriction no judging just love!! That is the real picture of Jesus and the way He want us to be. I pray that I can get to that stage in my life where I live care free like a child going on day to day just loving and living in the comfort of my Fathers arms!!