Boxes Boxes and More Boxes

Well, we are still in the process of moving but hopefully this will be the last move we have to make until we move into the house that we are going to buy. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to that day. To have something that is my own that I can do what I want to with and know that I never have to move again!!! Things have been really crazy this month on top of moving things at work have been a mess to. People quiting and everyone else having to pick up the slack is starting to wear on me. It just seems like just when you get comfortable at this job something happens and you are in a whirlwind all over again. It is very frustrating. Does not much good to complain about I guess just have to go with the flow. So that is what I am doing going with the flow. Let just see where it leads me.........................

Approved!!

I read something interesting the other day. It was talking about loving yourself and accepting yourself, which as you know has been an issue for me. It said that WE are all approved by God, just the way we are He has approved us. This really hit me. I myself in life do not have great credit and every time we apply for something I am scared that I will be denied. When we are approved I am so excited and feel so great about myself that someone has approved me. Think about it, why do we get so excited about something like that when God has approved us. Not only did He approve us but He saw that all of us had bad credit and would never meet His high approval rating so He made a way for us to be approved!! Maybe it is just me but this really touch me. No matter what I think about myself or how I feel it does not matter. God has already approved me and I am in the family. I just thought that it was cool. We but a lot of emphasis on getting approval in life when the only approval that matter is Gods.

Jobs

Does anyone ever really LOVE their job? There are days when I feel like I really enjoy my job and others that I am totally exhausted. Today is one of those days!! Don't get me wrong I like what I do and I have a great job with great benefit, but do you ever really love your job? Are there people that can't wait to wake up in the morning to go to work? Shouldn't everyone have that opportunity to have that experience? Maybe not, maybe we should all just be happy to have a job and suck it up right? Well, I don't know I guess for now I am just going to have to suck it up!!

Regaining Focus

This a the Word that God gave me about 2 years ago to read everyday, and I did for a while and then stopped. After my post yesterday God really speak to my heart again that I need to get back to what matters most and that is learning to love myself. This word is all about me and deals with what I struggle with. Today I start reading it again every morning and today I share it with you.

I am a strong, confident,beautiful,intelligent woman who has the mind of Christ and who is created in God image. God loves me and I have favor with Him where ever I go. I am in control of every aspect of my life and I lean not on my own understanding but His alone. I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me and am forgiven of all my sins upon confession and asking for forgiveness. I will lead this day with honor for the God that gave me life and gives me every breath that I breathe today and all others if He is willing. I will walk in the fruit of the spirit keeping my ears open to hear His voice and will no longer let the enemy steal one more minute of my joy. I accept every promise that God has given me and I will stand firm in His word without doubting. I speak these these things out loud Jesus name and will have the peace and joy that are in them.

Feelings

Are feelings lies or are they real? The way I feel about myself I know does not line up with the word of God and I know this to be true then why do I still feel this way. Why can't I just love myself for who I am right now or love myself enough to change! It is like a vicious cycle back and forth. I hate feeling this way but I also know that I am the only one that can do anything to change it. So what do i do? I want to be able to live my life and be happy without feel guilty. Yes we are talking about my weight again because honestly it is all I think about. It controls almost my every thought and I am so tired of it. I also have not been to Church or pick up my bible for about 2 weeks now and that is not helping me either. I miss Him and I can feel the tug on my heart for Him missing me too. I love that feeling and it makes me want to cry just realizing that the God of the whole world misses me and wants to spend time with me. Why am I so selfish? I know that some where deep down inside me there is a place a person that can do all the things that God has planed for me but it is finding the strength to pull that person out that gets me every time. They say it is so much easier believe that bad stuff over the good. I don't know about that. I guess in the moment you may feel good but afterwards you feel worse than ever. Bottom line is I know that it comes down to Me, Myself and God. He told us that it would not be easy,not just my weight problem but everything in life. I just feel like if I can just get passed this one thing, the main thing in my life that holds me back from feeling good about myself I can spit in the face of the enemy and get on really living and loving myself. Please pray for me. I had a pastor once tell me that when we live for the flesh we are feeding are our big fat black dog ( Satan our flesh ) all the while there is a little skinny white dog ( God our spirit ) who is starving to death and begging for out attention. I can see this picture in my head when I think about him telling me this. Why do we do that? Why do I do that? I want to start feeding my spirit and not my flesh pray for me that I can work on this.

Distracted

Hello again I am back!! Things have been pretty crazy the last week in my life. It seems like we are moving after all. Sometimes when I think that I hear God telling me one thing He reveals it me that I was hearing myself all a long. That is the great thing about God though He loves us so much that even when we makes mistakes He still makes it right. So that is one thing that has been going on and everything else is just typical job drama. I know that it is normal to have people come and go but this month I have had two of my MA's give notice and it is really stressing me out!! But right now I have to go do some packing so to be continued.......................