Morning Thoughts

So for me the morning routine is the same. Get up start the coffee and start the thoughts. Hating myself and feeling bad about what I hate the day before wondering why I have no self control and why I can't just get this right. Why is food so important!! So I have decided, I am going to blog everyday what I have ate for the day. If I have to write it all down maybe I can think before I eat. I am so tired of this controlling my life. Pray for me! I know that everything is one step at a time but it seems like in this area it is one step forward and ten thousands steps back. I want to be able to wake up in the morning and feel good about my previous eating day. I am just so tired of feeling this way. I WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH MYSELF AND LOVE MYSELF!! Pray, pray, pray for me please.